As with any Holiday, I get really anxious and nervous nearly cutting off everyone so I can get through it my own way. Am I the only one who misses someone this holiday season? Last year was tough because I was supposed to have my gender reveal on Thanksgiving Day. This Thanksgiving was supposed to be Elijah's 1st holiday with his family. So when people say "it gets better with time", how is that so? When every year I am going to think about my son and that it would be his

The moment I said those words I knew that I was healing. The site of babies or another pregnant woman freaked me out literally. I felt so bad that some of my friends gave birth to healthy babies and I couldn’t congratulate them.....in my mind I was saying it, but the words just would not come out. I was secretly jealous and I am not afraid to admit it. I didn't know how to be there for my friends when I was still grieving the death of my son. I didn't know how I could ce

October was an eventful month! I was very busy celebrating my mother, uncle, godson, aunt, and cousin's birthday; planning the 1st Pregnancy and Infant Loss walk that Baltimore City has ever seen, and having to face the 1 year anniversary of the day we loss our son. It was a chaotic month but I made it! I cried, I screamed but that was expected. One thing about me is I am very transparent about my feelings. I let people know how I feel and I show emotion often. I titled t