My baby is celebrating Thanksgiving in Heaven...
As with any Holiday, I get really anxious and nervous nearly cutting off everyone so I can get through it my own way. Am I the only one who misses someone this holiday season? Last year was tough because I was supposed to have my gender reveal on Thanksgiving Day. This Thanksgiving was supposed to be Elijah's 1st holiday with his family. So when people say "it gets better with time", how is that so? When every year I am going to think about my son and that it would be his 1st, 2nd, 3rd, etc. holiday with us. It doesn’t get better BUT you learn to GROW through it. I don't ever want to forget how my son made me feel and how his spirit continues to make me a better person.
Thanksgiving is a time to give thanks and be thankful for all your blessings, and boy am I thankful! Just this last month has been CRAZY to say the least....BUT GOD! I am blessed and highly favored! Even in the mist of my own pain, I still find a way to GIVE to others. I recently realized that sometimes I can give too much and others can become dependent on that. I am grateful for my ability to serve and be a blessing to others but I also realize I need to step back and let some people handle their own situation. When I did that, I realized I put Tamira FIRST (finally). And guess what, I am still the person with the big heart, who loves to serve and give...I just now know my boundaries and I make other people aware of what I will and will not accept. I am thankful this holiday season that I am not bitter, and that my heart still works. Thanks be to God for all the great things he has done for me and my family.
I know there are no words I can say to help an angel mom this holiday season but I pray that you feel the love and comfort from your angel baby smiling down on you. I pray that you are surrounded by family and friends that will love on you, hug on you, and support you in anyway. I pray God gives you peace and joy so that you are able to not only smile this Holiday but you can also thank him for the time you were able to spend with your baby. Thank him for all the wonderful things he continues to do for you. Thank him for the strength he gives you daily even if it’s just to get out the bed and walk down the steps. Thank HIM, Thank HIM, THANK HIM!!
While you all are gathered at the table this Thursday and ready to say grace and feast on the meal that sits in front of you, say a prayer for the person who is not sitting at the table this Thanksgiving. Mention that love ones name who won't be able to sit and laugh with you. Acknowledge that the person you are missing from the table is still a part of your family...now and forever. May you all have a very happy and blessed Thanksgiving :-)